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2. Koitus (4) To Alina, on October, 19th, 1-57 (it is extremely important!) Alina, I do not like you! I hate you! I hate you! And last time I speak-beg: from … bis from me! Leave me alone! Ib … s with the Kolej!!! Alexey. To Alina, on October, 19th, 6-26 (Excuse!) Alina, excuse the old fool! Has given in at night to emotions. What for you again were with it?! To hard me. And it is sick. You know, that I, despite of everything, I like you! Alexey. Lyoshe, on October, 19th, 21-48 (Explanatory) Lyosh, excuse, that could not communicate earlier! Went from faculty and has met Lenku, it has enticed me to herself home supposedly for a long time did not see also a film there is a class. I have looked "The day after tomorrow" (film-accident), have chatted, a pizza have used (without beer!). And so time also has spent. By the way, I called to you home the half-sixth, anybody a tube did not take, on cellular could not (as houses has left the notebook, and number yet has not learnt). Lyoshka, excuse, let bad thoughts do not climb to you in a head! Has climbed in the Internet, thought, that there you already have again abused me. An is not present! At all I do not know — well it or is bad. When you are silent, it is the most terrible. I hope, to receive from you today at least not malicious pismetso! Excuse me! After all I bad have not made anything! Forget about Kolku, REALLY I like only you! Alinka. Lyoshe, on October, 20th, 21-06 (the Worthless theme) Your silly woman D. N me zatrahala — is rude by phone! I will not call more to you! And you are a fool that you can not show who in the house the owner! Alina. To Alina, on October, 21st, 22-04 (I Hate!) Farewell! Details at last meeting. AND. D. Lyoshe, on October, 21st, 22-46 (In neponjatkah!) Lyosh! To tell the truth, has understood nothing in your one-line letter. Also stop to drink! You Behave, as silly dityo! Explain all one after another! I leave on «Factory of stars». P. S. By the way, I walked today with Lenkoj, and you, similar, have thought about ANOTHER. Alina. Latunkinoj, on October, 21st, 23-00 (Repetition) Once again quite seriously: I HATE YOU!!! You again fucked with the young leader krasnorozhih! That you have choked with its sperm! Alexey. P. S. By the way, on your moronic to "Factory of stars» in the point has sung one about ours with you "ljupfi": «This love was for fun …» domashnev@mail.ru, on October, 21st, 23-36 (Answer) To assimilate to you and yours D. N in mucks and the meannesses peculiar to you two (have grown together for 20 years with nasty things!), I am not going to, though it would be necessary! You that, think — to wound and offend you there is nothing? Deeply you are mistaken! But I will not do it nevertheless. I, perhaps, will give to you pleasure to choke in own saliva (bile)! Bon appetit! Latunkina. Latunkinoj, on October, 27th, 23-58 (Three reasons) Alina, you today at evening in library so obviously showed a new wedding ring on a ring finger of the right hand what not to notice it I could not. I also have noticed. In this connection three reasons: 1) Within one year to put on-carry two (and it is more) than a wedding ring on one finger — very bad sign (it not I, am the people has noticed). 2) Tima nesushkin is YOUR LEVEL. So — I congratulate. 3) to Divide you I am not going to any more. Alexey. domashnev@mail.ru, on October, 28th, 0-50 (Too three reasons) Alexey! And now my three reasons. 1. Who such Tima nesushkin? 2. Yes, the ring is similar on wedding, but it means nothing — simply gift. I have got used to carry your ring and when has ceased to do it (in what you on this finger is guilty!), to me became nekomfortno. 3. I will not dissemble, play and vyyozhivatsja — me you terribly do not suffice. Wished to touch on today's evening (your SMELL demented me — I sat all WET!), but from you already ice pieces broke away! And what for you then villages near to me? Alina. Latunkinoj, on October, 28th, 6-25 (Three comments) Alina! 1) Tima — it is final, opiska. But — characteristic. For me both your young partners in sex (both goggle-eyed CHashkin, and pink-checked Kohl) merge in one image. 2) On a ring finger of the RIGHT hand at Russian it is accepted to carry ONLY a wedding ring. 3) I always asked you and I ask: do not use in a life (especially with me) «complex Aglai». Wished to touch — touch! It — first. And secondly, what else you expected from me behaviour if you have not confessed till now for awful utreshny a mail from October, 21st (such flash of rage, besides unreasonable and unfair, I from you never expected!)? You from me waited for what warmth, if, knowing about my hypertrophied suspiciousness and ability to see in all first of all a minus, have in a pointed manner put on a "wedding" finger any ring? (By the way, after all, of course, he to you it has presented it? Well-well … Now remains — earrings …) I have sat down near to you forcedly (as you could notice — long menzhevalsja): convenient places any more was not, and it would not be desirable to deliver demonstrative discharge from you pleasure to ours with you to "kind acquaintances», envying our happiness. Alexey. P. S. However, about yours there is no"also I"touch": I nevertheless, repeat, to divide you any more I do not want! P. P. S. Excuse, but if you do not change an address line, I will not answer your mails (e-mails in an address line spamers and the hackers dispatching viruses) use only. P. P. P. S. About a wedding ring: recently my friend Peter Antoshkin has visited on your page the Internet, has had a look a photo (it in a course of ours with you of relations — I have asked to express it you) and has written to me: a pier, Lyosha, your Alina, of course, nice, but — on such do not marry; you into her eyes peer — it not from those girls who, as they say, wait the guy from army … Peter besides my sincere friend also the writer-psychologist so I believe it! Lyoshe, on October, 28th, 7-32 (Thanks that has answered!) Lyosh! All has understood. Thanks for a morning mail both distinct comments and explanations. Alina. P. S. Give best regards to Peter and tell, that I — good, white and fluffy! So let henceforth judges the person on a photo cautiously — smothering there it is not photographed, and appearance can be deceptive. To Alina, on October, 29th, 5-29 (is foggy-autumn) Such impression-picture: autumn, a fog, lake (sea) … You departure in any boat all further and further from coast … Ashore I. You departure from me … There, near to you, already other people. You with them cheerfully exchange words, laugh, coquet … They They call you "Alina", "Alinka", "Alinushka" and even to a pain acquaintance of "Smoke" …, apparently, touch you, to your soul … I sit one, in catalepsy, and I can already do nothing … On my eyes (what to hide!) — tears … I understand, that just about, some more instants, and your silhouette will definitively be disappeared-will be dissolved, your voice will abate for me … And — ALL WILL be over! What for? Why?. It is clear Nothing. To live it would be desirable, and already it is impossible … Sadly. Alexey. Lyoshe, on October, 29th, 7-24 (Arithmetics!) Lyosh! Descend on my page in the Internet (last added poem see) and then you will precisely define distance from And to In! However, here it: I in your food chain I wait submissively for last hour, I wait for a cold and fair point, In commas to be ridiculous and dangerous. You read the reshene — To put an end on everything, and an order! Heart is chosen for a target. Stand!. Come round!. Do not do!. It is not necessary!!! To Alina, on October, 29th, 7-38 (Why???) Alinas, well why I have not received these lines last night???!!! Lyoshe, on October, 29th, 7-48 (Because …) Aglaja I sranaja! Lyoshe, on October, 29th, 22-10 (From Aglai) Thanks! Our evening was today just as before! It appears, I have had time so to become bored of your caresses!. I breathe you! Aglaja. P. S. Lyosh! You of that — too, whether that, at "Factory" light? To Alina, on October, 29th, 22-25 (About lapidarnosti) Alina, lovely! Your mails are short, the behaviour is strange, feelings are fantastic, frejdizm is concentrated … Probably, for it and I like?! For what "thanks", native? Decipher. You know, how I like clearness, razlozhennost on shelves, clearness and accuracy. For what thanks are concrete??? If you will answer correctly, that is it is fair and how to me hochetsja-will like (?!), I at the following meeting will kiss you to (your) hysterics. For now once again obtselovyvaju ALL it is virtual! «Factory of stars», naturally, looked, for you to it have accustomed me. Without "Factory" I now on Friday also will not fall asleep. Alina, do not fuck with Kolej!!! (So now I will finish all mails!) By the way, absolutely by the way at remarkable writer Harold Robbins subtracted that: «the Man can fool around, and it to it. But the man never changes to the mistress, and it should not change to it with other lover». Shine! Alexey. Lyoshe, on October, 29th, 22-55 (trimming Is made!) Lyosh! Thanks that you suffer me: foolish and sranenkuju (it is final, it is a typing error — stranenkuju) Aglaju, to the Smoke, Alinku, Alinushku (whom there still!.) Yes, similar, I am cut off and am shortened in letters. To tell the truth, my conscience TEARS the most disgusting blevotinoj! Besides the head is ill. I have gone, probably, to sleep. Tomorrow is a new day. Good night! Alina. To Alina, on October, 29th, 23-00 (it is strange-with!) About conscience — it is strange and foggy. About «the head is ill» — I understand: at most the same and in the same place. I send to gift SHerlizku from it grudkoj: to me it is nice! Alina, do not fuck with Kolej! Alyosha. P. S. I kiss you! To Alina, on October, 30th, 10-40 (… but secret of its coverlet of line!) Alina, good morning (is more correct — almost already a dinner)! Alas, you are right, comparing me WHICH With WHOM: I am valid not always you I understand (or I do a kind before myself, what I do not understand?). Reality: 1) For you poetry — a dream? You have informed yesterday, that go to sleep (I and was disconnected), and instead of this beginning to write verses … And verses so expressional, that about them will not tell, will not think, as if they are written in a dozing condition and with a headache. 2) Nevertheless (I am persevering!) explain confused, that means groan-exclamation from last yesterday's mail — «To tell the truth, my conscience TEARS the most disgusting blevotinoj!."??? Do not take in head on habit to pass this my question without attention-answer. And in general write: how you live? How a tummy? How libido? What strategy concerning the nearest vital space? What understanding of socially significant concepts about a love role in human life, a monogamy, polygamy, social roots of mutual relations between individuals homo-more-less-sapiens? Well etc. More shortly, how mood, native?! Yes, still very important question: whether you already otlup have given to the Internet-fool with sweaty eggs Zamzuevu or still struggle with pity and vanity? And last interrogative cry: whether you wish me to kiss? (I mean — in a mail.) you have absolutely ceased to do it! Alexey. Lyoshe, on October, 30th, 12-52 (Otvetiki-greetings) Lyosh, and to you of kind morning and a dinner! 1. Yesterday verses has started to write unexpectedly! Fairly-fairly! Really the headache can hinder vdohnovenju?! Suddenly time — and popyorlo, so desire to rush to dream embraces (and the dream tempted me!) has there and then disappeared! Well verses to you about «last line» as? 2. And concerning sincere blevotiny — such affairs: you do not leave, are not dissolved from my thoughts, but after all it, probably, any more the love, not passion, and any other tender feeling, and still is pure water change that is rather unpleasant and sick, therefore me and tears! 3. The tummy normally, libido sleeps, the vital space has shrivelled … Understanding of concepts about a love role? And what such the love, and whether is it? Mood splinovo-autumn. With sweaty eggs — virtual silence (for my part). These tricks silly yes "cats-mouses" have bothered. 4. In general, all has mixed up in the house Oblonsky. 5. Thanks that has called, was glad to hear your voice. alinus. To Alina, on October, 30th, 13-11 (99 percent) Alina, all has understood, except one: WHO to WHOM CHANGES??? Explain! Verses about last line, as well as all your last verses, — a class! Only not so it is pleasant to me, that they obviously show: there is no rest in your soul. Alexey. P. S. About a kiss, of course, zamylila … P. P. S. And still it is not pleasant to me still, that you start to define-divide-anatomise-prepare concepts "love", "passion" and something there like "tenderness". Give we will agree: as soon as the word-concept "love" will disappear from our relations, should disappear and our relations. Lyoshe, on October, 30th, 13-18 (Missing percent!) Lyoshka, the darling, is created strange and completely not cool thing: when I have sex with you, it seems to me, that I change to it and when with it — that I change to you … Well! Agree not to climb in surgery! Whole, whole, whole! Alinka. To Alina, on October, 30th, 22-00 (Careful, blja!.) Alina, indeed, I very much also am very anxious. Almost as yours papik. What horse-radish you in such CRITICAL condition somewhere there walk? Moreover (the imagination has cleared up!), somewhere there on a creaking sofa you do minet to whom it is not necessary!. Well what for to you all it? I wish to remind you one good French saying (I have thought up her): to satisfy hunger, it is not obligatory to eat from two plates! You so in a pointed manner showed today, that me you have already become boring, that I should not be such importunate … For God's sake, only tell-hint (only more thickly), and I will disappear from your life … I, the truth, understand you: you with it QUITE CORRESPONDING pair. You underline each time, that you with it nearby smotrites-are looked and outwardly approach each other. And it so. Moreover, your ancestors accept it. Good, not absolutely I a primacy. I take the obligation: it is more a uniform bad, malicious, spiteful word against yours If I will not tell, I will not write. Be happy! Alinka, native washing, be happy!!! Alex. Lyoshe, on October, 30th, 23-55 (From grief has run away!) Lyosh! Today I was with Lenkoj (without Prick!) on its summer residence in the company of little girls and boys. Stirred, ate a pizza, drank beer, danced. Were not late nearly for last bus. Did not begin to warn-inform you. All was DECENTLY and cheerfully! And all the same I very much-very like your care (almost fatherly)! It is better, than zealous jealousy! You will read my mail (the justification — again!) most likely tomorrow. So good morning! Alinka. Lyoshe, on November, 1st, 23-28 (Contact) Lyosh! As you will not call — you all time drunk! Throw you this business, it DOES NOT SOLVE your problems, and adds the new! Besides you do not like yourself in such kind. And if it is fair, you remind me in such kind CHashkina — a brainless monkey, and it kills all good! Do not break itself! It is not necessary! You are silent … Means, you pout … Yes? Well be not silent, write something: that did, as D. N itself conducts? Excuse, that today it has not turned out to meet. Me here at home priprjagli, and the brother with the term paper has come: a pier, help and so on. Respond! Au!!! Alinka. To Alina, on November, 2nd, 6-05 (I live) Alinas, I live, I enamoured, I am. But me it is sad and melancholy. You not with me … You sleep now, my pleasure, prichmokivaesh in a dream gubyoshkami, and dreams you any pricking (so — from the tiny letter!) which kisses you wet lips, the dirty member pushes into you, fidgets on you and lows … Faugh! Most it became opposite! Alinka, the darling, kill-etch my melancholy! In ours with you COMMUNICATIONS (including it is virtual-mejlovskoj) all time arise any failures, many my questions remain without answers … However, I will not set questions now. Simply — some reasons. 29‑го December and 7‑го January with us there was a God. It wanted to it to make this wonderful experiment: whether it is possible to put, say, to one cart an old horse and a young quivering fallow deer? In my opinion, this experience to the Lord is excellent daring. But then to the Creator, probably, bored us to be engaged, and It has let matters drift. And the demon just also did not doze. It it, horned, has arranged 13‑е June and I will meet your disgusting with a gopher, it has planned it 3‑е August, has laid you on another's creaking sofa and has moved apart your feet, it it has planned a trip in Gelendzhik (absolutely mean and it is impossible treacherous!), it is a devil continues to connect-sovokupljat now you to it though I more than am assured, that these mechanical (polutorachasovye!) copulation of special pleasure to you does not deliver … However, good, I after all wanted not about that. I want, Alina, pleasure washing, washing unique to tell-write to you more and more time: I LIKE YOU! When I self-confidently confirm, as if to a smog to grow cold to you, some days with you not kontachit are necessary is blefnja, it is delirium, it is self-deception attempt. And you know it. Moreover, you know-have a presentiment, as you not in a condition to squeeze out-etch me from the heart, the consciousness, the soul. Alina, lovely, dear, well that we resist? Well what for we, excuse, we try to write and spit against a wind?! You do not know (owing to the age), and I at least guess, that our resistance to destiny, circumstances, the Lord at last (and He, would be desirable to believe me, has again turned on us The look!), simply thoughtlessly, ridiculously, silly and senselessly. Alinka, the girl washing, you have tried to be sober and pragmatic. Well really it is pleasant to you? Get drunk, be reckless, be young, be direct, be happy, admit to itself, that really and for the first time in a life SO STRONGLY you like only me! At us with you (if only you want!) still there will be such bright sunny days, such hot intoxicating nights, such wonderful tender evenings … I now mentally embrace you, gently I touch with lips yours, I go down kisses more low, I unbutton a jacket, I bare yours «gentle and velvety», greedy I drop a mouth to a divine nipple … Alinka! Well why we now not nearby?!! I like you! I LIKE!!! Alexey Domashnev. Lyoshe, on November, 2nd, 9-18 (I conceal!) Good morning, Lyoshenka! Has read. It is shaken. I Read-re-read and — I conceal. Thanks you, native mine, that SO me you like. I too like you! As though wished to meet today you, but … is more correct, we, of course, will meet you in University, but, excuse, Lyosh, I will not deceive: I promised Kolke to descend in the evening with it at cinema. Do not take offence! If you want, I will drop in to you after a dinner in an office and we for five minutes — WILL be closed … And tomorrow, we hope, will meet REALLY and I will smooth down hot kisses the hooligan behaviour. O'k? Alinka. Lyoshe, on November, 6th, 18-17 (We in anger-with!!!) Lyosh Lyoshich! Deign to answer-with: you sotik that — is eternally disconnected??? And what for then it bought-with?! I call-call, and in the answer the repugnant aunt does not cease doldonit one and too: «the Subscriber is temporarily inaccessible, call back later!» Home I call — there angry D.N.Gde we gad, on what court yard-gates your-with bum is dragged and why you have forgotten-with, what at 17-00 the Smoke should call? If tomorrow your Excellency is again hungover — forget, I beg, as to the Smoke call, its phone and the Internet-address!!!. What All of you, the sir, the little fool-with! With big irritation — malicious Alina-with. P. S. I leave with Lenkoj to drink! Has got me all! I too presume to disappear simply! To Alina, on November, 7th, 1-31 (Melancholy!) Alina, lovely, native, I like you! And this most important thing. All will be good. The most important thing — be not foolish! To today! Alexey. P. S. Alina to drink very badly — on itself I know! It is not necessary, and! Lyoshe, on November, 7th, 23-40 I (Inform) Lyosh! I'm fine. Good night. Alina. To Alina, on November, 10th, 3-53 (the Sleeping Alina) Alinas, at me a sleeplessness. Tried to lay down in bed — it is useless. All I think and I think. About you, about us. Something it is sad. You, of course, sleep and have dreams. Perhaps, me. And can — to Kohl … Good, I do not want about it. I that would be desirable a little happiness. But at deaf night, in a sleeplessness in happiness possibility it is believed hardly … Alina, I have got tired. I am terribly tired. I have got tired — MORTALLY. For you, young, it just entertainments — in expectation of the "present", "future" life. For me it is the LIFE. Do not joke with it. You know, THAT you mean for me, WHO you in my life … Present only the I prick 50-year-old: whether there will be you it as to like through 30 with superfluous years? By the way and by the way, I do not ask, I do not beg, I do not put the ultimatum (it would be silliest); I simply address to your reason (and it at you, against nature rules, is!), to heart, soul: at you and at it (not at reason — at Prick) still ahead: will be for 30 years of love and sweet sufferings so much! Do not hurry up! Alina, to me, and the truth, very much and very badly. Good, sleep, native you mine and it is perfect to me not the correct. It is All the same good, that you are. Tomorrow, give the God, we will meet, and, it would be desirable to believe, it becomes easier on a shower … See you tomorrow, Alinas! Kisses in mails at us have not been become accepted, but I all the same you whole — am gentle. Alexey. Lyoshe, on November, 10th, 21-31 (Forced) Lyoshka! Mine Lyoshka! To tell the truth, I do not know, that to you to write on your heart-breaking "shout" … I fine understand you, and from it to me is even worse. Because a little than I can help. As though we neither quarrelled and what each other nor spoke, I will be always grateful to you (and destiny!!!) That we were crossed on this planet: in this century, in this city, in University. And let between us there were the years, different circumstances is there was the best, GOLD time, our time … I to you is grateful for each instant spent with you! And still to you from it, probably, it is not becomes easier. But, the God sees, I try, I wish to help! But to heart you will not order, yes you and know it … I go mad because, that I turn in CHashkina which once "has awfully broken" me. I even did not imagine, that the destiny so will play a trick over me and will force to play a role of this "executioner". For certain to these it something proves to me. Do not judge, yes we do not judge you will be! Lyoshenka, you at all do not represent, as to me pleasantly-joyfully-is pleasant-is remarkable because, that you like me: me and YOU! But also I know: how much to you with this feeling painfully-terribly-is intolerable-is heavy … I do not wish anybody to THROW, LOSE, KILL, TORMENT … You — a part of my life and, itself fine you know, — not the small and last. But love (sex) at us should not be more. And not because I do not want you also you to me is not interesting any more as the man (it just not so!) that is why, that heart burns other flame. Pretty, I know, that you have got tired, were tired to death from all it. I will palter, if I admit, that would be glad, if you fall in love with another, but it would be though any exit (like cures like!). I want, that you have forgotten me and madly I am not wanted-am afraid it! I can not (I can not!) to lose you! But as you will solve, and will be, I have no right to you to order! Know one: there will be no you in my life and the life washing will be deserted! Do not tear ALL threads between us, I beg! Leave at least ONE! Aching dog in the manger — so now also I will subscribe. P. S. I will be in the Internet: to wait for the answer-comment — till 23-00. To Alina, on November, 10th, 21-52 I (do not want) Alina, I do not wish anything to make comments. I, indeed, have got tired. The only thing only I will tell: you are necessary to me as the WOMAN (besides other), sex with you is necessary to me — I do not think of other. And that «heart burns other flame» — you have simply invented, you play. All — anything else I do not wish to speak! Alexey. Lyoshe, on November, 19th, 23-33 (You saw?) Lyosh, whether you saw my new verses on Stihire? Alina. To Alina, on November, 19th, 23-41 (Bewilderment) Alina what occurs?! We have left! Really between us comes to an end nothing??!! Yes, I have seen-has read new your verses. I understand nothing. I am afraid to understand something. And in general, as you will concern following my VERY SERIOUS statement: relations between us are possible only in the event that with it you will stop ALL And ALL RELATIONS. It not the ultimatum, is the request. Alexey. P. S. I want, that you liked me. That's all. Lyoshe, on November, 19th, 23-46 (If the nobility …) Lyosha! I too understand nothing: what for I have written you today the letter why such verses were born?. Subconsciousness — a powerful piece! Lyosha, I do not know answers and I do not understand, questions whence come! Probably, this night will not be quiet (both at you, and at me), but I nevertheless wish you it! Have a rest! Alinochka. P. S. Give tomorrow we will meet! To Alina, on November, 20th, 23-59 (Questionnaire) Alina! Thanks!!! You were gentle and passionate today as never (here that the compelled vacation means for love!). I sit before a computer, like and happy, but overflowed with any questions, as beer in a close bottle carbonic acid. Here at least a part from them (questions): 1) whether it was good to you these of one and a half week without me? 2) You are going to you something to change and in our relations, and in a life? 3) whether It is pleasant to you to be such … silly? 4) whether it is time to cease to force itself? 5) whether it is time to cease to torment me? 6) whether you want you at last to yourself to answer a question, what (who) for you happiness? 7) whether you repent for today's evening? 8) whether you wish to MEET and tomorrow? 9) If you want, in how much it will occur? 10) whether you Understand, what if we leave absolutely both we will be ill? 11) whether you Realize, what we can leave absolutely if you continue here this absolutely mad behaviour? 12) whether it seems to you, what we all the same are created for each other? 13) whether you are afraid, what all these your experiments with boys and "cold" love not only will not make you happy, but also at all will defile your life? 14) When you at last will regain consciousness?! 15) whether you Miss on me every second, the same as I on you? 16) whether you Wish to touch now you to my body to caress me how I wish to touch yours, to embrace you, to press to heart?. 17) whether There is no at you a sensation, what time whistles, departing by us in the past, and we how fools, we mark time and picked our small silly acts? 18) whether comes to you mind thought, what if in your verses the melancholy on me and our former relations this melancholy you easily to transform-turn into pleasure constantly breaks? 19) whether would like you in such weather, how now, and at the next foolish bend of the mood-behaviour (if it now it is possible) — to commit suicide? 20) Would like for you that I now when you in a bathroom were, was in the same place together with you, then has properly pounded you the big soft towel and has carried on hands in our bed?. Well here — while we will stop on it. Answer, if you can, on each question fairly, frankly and COMPLETELY. And I will look yes I esteem. I wait. Alexey. Lyoshe, on November, 21st, 10-00 (Answers) Lyosh! I answer biographical. For me in half an hour waits Lenka in a pizzeria. 1) it is bad. 2) You know, that I wish to remain for ever with you very close and native people. 3) it is not pleasant. 4) and 5) It is time. 6) the Happiness is a harmony with world around and by itself. It while is not present. 7) Is not present — all was perfect! 8) and 9) I Will think. 10) I Understand: we lose in each other close people and when you will understand it, I hope, will be yet late. When the woman from the man leaves and the man from the woman is it is possible to go through, and here when the PERSON … leaves 11) I Realize. 12) In a sense — yes. 13) Perhaps, it not experiments … All dares in heavens, we only execute Its will. 14) And what there is a reality and a dream? Perhaps all it only dreams me? I somewhere in between: both I sleep, and is not present … 15). You very strongly do not suffice me. 16) very much I wish to embrace, nestle and look in your eyes. 17) At me sensation of acceleration of a life which burns me from within and outside. Once I will wake up, and me — forty years. But my life is that. I hurry to live, because I do not know, how much still remain to time … 18) I Repeat: you do not suffice me also my verses on it is a thread between us should not break, because we are connected by something invisible and indissoluble. So it seems to me … 19) Thanks God, no. pohandrit — yes, but to such the thought did not reach. 20) I Admit fairly, I thought of it! I kiss you! Alina. P. S. And still — I wish to specify: what for you wish to MEET tomorrow? Again all thoughts only round a fly? To Alina, on November, 21st, 12-34 (Last contact?) Everything, Alina, most likely I go on most rasposledny contact. Though you already in the open scoff (ah-ja-ja!), I will answer you quite seriously: to meet you I want and as soon as possible to discuss very important questions-problems — whether it is necessary to us to give Kuriles to Japanese? Who will win elections in Ukraine? Whether there are prospects at Russia? Well etc. Unless not an occasion?! Alexey. P. S. And when, at last, the pizza «with Lenkoj» will become boring to you?! Lyoshe, on November, 21st, 22-06 (I Ask!) Lyosh! I ask HUMANLY, do not leave my life! Smoke. P. S. The pizza, by the way, was very tasty — in vain you so it! P. R S. I have bought sotik (I specify — itself has bought, it not a gift), number — 8-906-599-54-07. To Alina, on November, 22nd, to 19-02 (Person) The person (in former our life — Alina Latunkina), here that I to you want and should tell. I, being near to you, should think of your body, your caresses. It is chemistry. It is a smell. It is animal level. Alas! In this connection — nizhajshaja the request: please, I beg you, try not to come nearer to me more close than on 3 metres (and it is better — on 5). When this distance is observed, I am quite adequate, sober, rational and perfectly I see-understand, that you are ugly (I will tell more softly — not in my taste), that you impudent and unscrupulous (I will tell more delicately — in a modern way-in an youth way raskovanna), that you DOING NOT WASH, that you the trite lover of long pathological sexual intercourses … I nevertheless hope, that you not the latest silly woman, pleasure washing, and my request will execute. Farewell, the former love! To me with you it was good! Thanks! Alexey. P. S. And more — nizhajshaja, the BEGGING request: never and to anybody any more tryokaj, do not ring, do not murmur about Love from the big letter, about it ostensibly neumiraemost … Ne nada! P. P. S. Now, when I, the fool, write these gained lines, you, most likely, fuck with it in full growth: from your groans, podi, plaster over a sofa is showered … Hrustno, druh mine, hrustno! P. P. P. S. Fie on you! You have gone together with the gopher to hell!!! P. P. P. P. S. And still: why you so persistently wish to bury the love to me? It is such nonsense! It is illness! Our love, that's it, — LIVE! When you will understand-realise, that our love will die only together with us (and remained in this world it will be terribly unhappy longer to kick and damn itself for nonsense, arrogance and in vain lived days!), you will be terrified to that you now, do at present … And I know, that our love, alas, it is a lot of happiness to us will not bring, on the contrary — will improbably complicate a life (because we each other do not believe and we flounder in our love one by one!), but I all the same do not want and there will be no it is the love to you — to kill-smother … Domashnev. |
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