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2. Koitus (2) To Alina, on September, 1st, 3-31 (absolutely night) 1) Alina, I like you! 2) I do not want Gelendzhika — do not go, I ask!!! 3) it is not pleasant, that on site Stihi.ru has given all our (mine) of the Smoke. 4) Place there instead of a black-and-white photo, where you in my ear rings. 5) Me it is bad without you. 6) What for you with another? 7) For God's sake, present to me Friday! AND. AND. D. P. S. Has read an epigraph to "Daniel Martin" and — the uterus has fallen. I will remind: «Crisis consists that old already dies, and new cannot be born yet; in this interregnum there is a set of the diverse pathologies» — Antonio Gramshi. Alyoshe, on September, 1st, 20-00 (Well and where?) Lyosh! "Daniel Martin" is, is final, abruptly, as well as itself gn Faulz but where we were at 19-30 — time to phone nobody has approached? And I after all called! Good, I go to Lenke on an arrow. To zavtreva. In the Evening-night, fall, I will not look out. And in the morning I will leave, I will look, as you vykrutilsja-was justified! Calling the Smoke. P. S. Zamzuev (the poet from Moscow, I to you about him told) in nature the stupid mail has sent, moreover and at night. Hren! Alyoshe, on September, 3rd, 23-31 (In three lines) Good night, Lyosha. Today's our affinity was so is perfect — thanks! Spend me tomorrow at least a call. And nevertheless it would be desirable to receive in the morning a mail from you. If is not present — I will understand. I ask, behave well! Protect health! Recover! I will arrive — I will call. Perhaps it will be possible to call and from the South or pisnut a mail. I will recollect THERE and you in general, and about today's evening … See you 16‑го. Whole strong-strong! Alinka Domashneva (!!!). To Alina, on September, 4th, 7-25 (Parting) Alina, I all the same like you! Both mentally, and psychologically, and physically. I ask: when you will be with it there snoshatsja (excuse!) — remember me. Lyoshka. Alyoshe, on September, 4th, 7-52 (Spasibochki!!!) Lyosha!!! Thanks for a mail. For me it is very important. Has gone. I will think of you! Yours. To Alina, on September, 6th, 10-31 (Where contact?) Alina if you do not write and call to me — I will arrive in Gelendzhik. I there will find for you and — one God knows, that will be … Has become bored!!! I like!!!!! I drink the bitter!!!!!!!! (You with Kolej have gone on the South, and I — to hard drinking!) Alex. Alyoshe, on September, 17th, 1-30 (Gelendzhiksky) Greetings, liked Rams!!! Kind night, Lyosha! Suntanned (alas, not so white) Alinka. To Alina, on September, 17th, 10-17 (Message) With arrival! It is glad, that it is live. Also that — suntanned. Ah, Alina, Alina! I thought all these last days and today was definitively convinced-has understood, that main my error — I concerned you SERIOUSLY … I close definitively from you the soul. Farewell, the former liked! Alexey Alekseevich (only so — well what I to you "Lyosha"!). Alyoshe, on September, 17th, 14-32 (My message) More shortly to see you me do not want! I Will be insulting … to try not to miss. The former liked. Alyoshe, on September, 18th, 20-08 (Theme) SOSкучилась!!! Alinka. Latunkinoj, on September, 18th, 23-40 (About KOHL) Alina Naumovna! Yesterday, when after two weeks of separation (the word inexact, well it is fine), you have not wished to give me at least half an hour, and you have run again to the gopher (as if these two weeks have not spent with it continually), I, yet not knowing, that suddenly today on me SOSкучитесь (!!!), thought-reflected and has decided here that. I will go, probably, to CHashkinu and I will suggest it to create KOL (Club rejected Latunkinoj). We with it will meet, drink beer of "Trestle" and to recollect-cry former happiness. In due course the present brother-gopher will join us, will pay an entrance fee (and we will already enter by then payments). There are us three, and we will remove somewhere office. On a wall, naturally, your portrait — where you in a suit with a tie, black manicure, strict to incredibility will hang. Such in a life you, of course, practically do not happen but what to do? (By the way, this discrepancy was very visually showed on site Stihi.ru — under this portrait where you such strict and, like, serious, are your answers to the reviewers everyone zamzuevym, written-created in improbable tone and style: «Stroke me, please, on a back! I prognus-will be substituted and zamurlychu: mr-r! mr-r!.» Horror!!!). Well and so, who becomes following members (faugh!) KOLa, of course, particularly to tell-foresee it is impossible, but types to assume it is possible: on algorithm at first it will be the 65-year-old muzhik, and then — the 12-year-old boy … How much all will be members (faugh!) in due course in this Club, too precisely to foresee it is impossible, but only not 10, as you assumed-promised, for the price to your words-promises (even the most beautiful) same as to the used toilet paper that was proved by a life already mnogazhdy. So KOL will obviously prosper and replenish with members (faugh and more time faugh!) … Here such, frankly speaking, sad thoughts oppressed yesterday my head — after all I did not know, what pleasure waits for me today, what pleasant SOS. Eh and why to the person it is not allowed to look in the future, at least for one day (I do not speak — on HALF a year!) Well and that you «will try not to miss» — nobody doubts. Successes! Lyosh Lyoshich. (Sic!) Domashnevu, on September, 19th, 0-11 (About a horse-radish it knows than!) And whence you, Alexey Alekseevich, such bilious undertook?! As if tickled you at a birth not a small beard wet — that, that between feet, and pimples of a bilious bubble! I simply wished you to see: two times called, but, to see, your heart was cemented. Easier to look at you wanted, you understand?! It you have not wanted to meet me! And to Kolke I have gone behind things: we had one bag for two, and in it all my shorts-brassieres remained — it was necessary to take away … P. S. Send me to hell, whether that, or write, that to you to me it is violet! P. R S. Your sick imagination (KOL!!!?) me frightens-amazes! It appears, washing shizoidnost is still florets … P. River R S. And in general, you know that, Alexey Alekseevich, descend better the wife trahni, can, then you will land, will be consoled! Alina. Latunkinoj, on September, 19th, 9-22 (About business) To discuss our personal mutual relations I any more I do not want and I will not be. And here about one question still to talk it is necessary. The matter is that my books (Dostoevsky, Shukshin, Cortazar) are urgently necessary to me — you have detained them to impropriety. I PRAY, that within the next few days they were at me. Domashnev. Alyoshe, on September, 20th, 21-13 (Comments) Lyosh! Evening was very warm! I more and more time was convinced, that your tenderness and in general of a life, and in bed — is fantastic! Thanks you!!! You — simply remarkable! I am valid on you SOSкучилась! D. N not so shouted? Before communication. Smoke. To Alina, on September, 20th, 23-13 (Comments on the comment) Alinas, it to you thanks! I repeat: at me for last days the belief was created, that you definitively and irrevocably from me have left in all and all senses. So today's evening, your recognitions, that you still like me, not speaking about ALL OTHER of this evening — as a gift … Besides there were this evening strokes, there were your recognitions-reservations which extremely HAVE encouraged me. (That you did not suffer, did not guess, I admit at once and frankly: me pleases, that at you with it not all is fine in bed …) D. N, thanks God, only hardly vorchnula. I descended in a pizzeria, have brought a monstrous pizza (in size with velokoleso), and we had quite peacefully supper with it, and now here have looked the beginning of a teleserial "Site". Idyll! I will add, that I do not know, than it is ALL (our relations with you) will come to an end, but it seems to me (and it would be desirable!) that it is ALL as it is possible did not come to an end longer. And that you always saw in me not only the person, the professor, the writer and someone there still, but also … Guess itself! And more I will tell: in love it is necessary to believe not only in another, but also in itself. (To what it I?!) Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 21st, 12-41 (Autumn … Maples …) Lyosh! I again povjus. O'k? In portable, certainly, sense. That is — julit-confuse I am not going to. How yours ogorodik — my smoky spirit there has not evaporated yet definitively? Seem, the autumn really on heels comes to woman's summer. It is a pity. However, it is a pity — at the bee, and on-human — it is insulting. That it I (as well as yesterday) the beginnings filosofemnichat. Probably, that critical days not far off. Now Mr. Limonova I will read-absorb and you to recollect. Till a virtual supper! Alinka. To Alina, on September, 21st, 20-41 (Autumn … Alarms …) Alina, native! At me mood too "filosofemnicheskoe", but — in other occasion. I have thought of a problem being which you to me admitted yesterday, and, having returned from a kitchen garden (where your spirit, of course, soars, and I, looking at a box in a carriage, each time I I recollect-see all as in reality …), have seen the directory "Sexual pathology" (M: Medicine, 1990) and here that, my friend Alina, should and is simply obliged to you to tell. If you do not stop to have sex with pathological Kolej, you threatened at least with two troubles: Во-1-х, it you for … yot (excuse, other word here does not approach; especially — you read Limonova) if not to death to illness it is exact. Во-2-х (That, maybe, is more terrible) if you get used to its monstrous certificates, you never then cannot take pleasure with the NORMAL man. You should remain with this gopher till the end of a life or to search same, that in the nature meets extremely seldom. You only realise: at men healthy in every respect sexual intercourse (the frictional stage kopuljativnogo a cycle) lasts from 1,5 to 3,5 mines, on the average 2,5 mines ("Sexual pathology", with. 46). Everything, that leaves for these frameworks (even ours with you of 5-10 minutes), from the point of view of medicine — already a pathology. And at you with it — for 1,5 hours (90 minutes!!!). And the most important thing, the long certificate (the arrested person ejakuljatsija — ejaculatio tarda), having wearisome character, influences health not so much partner, how much the partner … (with. 197) Alina, it not jokes. To you each gynecologist will confirm it. And you to the doctor necessarily should descend! Here such lyrics — excuse. Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 21st, 22-18 (Autumn … Cares …) As to my sexual life …. In the intimate plan all it ESPECIALLY does not disturb me. Time on time is not necessary — I to you told: when 1,5 hours, and when 30-40 minutes. Especially, if I do not want affinity — it and will not be. So to exaggerate it is not necessary. Yes, I not so like to be engaged with it sex. I like more — easier to lay in bed bared, to feel its skin. At us at times happens, that all comes to an end with a prelude, and then simply we lay, we talk … I do not know, maybe, it as it is necessary I do not raise … Here such here rasklad. And all the same — thanks for trouble. To me it is pleasant. Fairly. Alina. To Alina, on September, 21st, 22-35 (theme Continuation) Alina, native mine! You after all itself say, that at you business with it reaches at times a natural pain and tortures. More all has amazed me, that you are terrified to that it is necessary similar to suffer, maybe, till the end of a life, and, despite it, do not wish to stop it … It simply horror or insanity: to feel-realise sexual incompatibility with the partner and to continue to be engaged with it sex! I do not ask, I simply speak: you shchemjashche it is a pity to me as close and native person. You risk in due course absolutely to lose interest to sex, will start to hate it (and sex, and the one who forces you), will cease to be the WOMAN. You with the romantichesko-poetic and taking a great interest nature try to convince yourself, that suffer all for the sake of "love", but itself (is, is in you and a pragmatical vein!) at heart you understand-realise, what is it a whim, it dur, it is simple unwillingness to admit own error … Well why you should suffer a pathology of this gopher which cannot terminate one and a half hour?! Alinka, the darling, excuse, but after all you in effect — frigidna. More precisely, you do not know, that such present PHYSICAL orgazm, did not test and do not test it. It is not excluded, that in due course you will test (after a birth of the child most likely). While you are capable to test only PSYCHOLOGICAL orgazm. Yes, during sex you take pleasure (at least — will not deny? — With me you receive), and your groans, passionate movements of a body, zakatyvanie the eye is ALMOST game, but for this purpose it is necessary, that you PASSIONATELY liked during this moment of the partner, itself GREEDY wanted sex and that sexual intercourse did not last INFINITELY … Good, we will close a theme. Excuse! Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 21st, 23-23 (Angela) Lyoshka, you very lovely, behave carefully and tenderly. Thanks! I know, that at all I do not deserve such reference from your party, but me very much (!!!) it is pleasant! You do not represent, as! Perhaps you — my guardian angel (!?). Is in all that you write — the truth. But the life sometime will place all on the shelves. Also you know, the most awful that during the moments of affinity with it I think of you, I represent you … Smoke. To Alina, on September, 21st, 23-40 (About angelstve) Alinas, the guardian angel is a RANK! Thanks! But, maybe, I not a guardian angel, and — papik-2? Therefore such careful. Jokes jokes, but at Faulza subtracted, that relations between the man and the girl, is younger than its years on 25-30, something remind an incest … Faugh! Again, probably, not in a theme! And pathology themes I will not concern more — you the adult girl, solve. About ours with you of the following meeting give we are concretised — it will be, at least, this year? Dymkin a guardian angel. Alyoshe, on September, 21st, 23-58 (About all on slightly) The meeting, certainly, will be! I think — on Friday. Concerning an age difference and the relations reminding like as an incest is still old man Freud spoke-pisyval. And in this thought there is a true share. But business in other: you are SIMPLY REMARKABLE man and PLACES an angel — that's all! My God, excuse me, guilty, for such words and a mention You in vain! So — let Faulz and Freud have a rest (to the last — tsarstvie heavenly!). Quiet and kind night, Lyosha! Be not sick! I, by the way, as during old kind times — in pink pizhamke. Eh, time flows, and something and does not vary … Again philosophy polilas-was dripped. And it is harmful, especially for the night and in considerable quantities. So I too, probably, now will go to a dream. Come to it! pokeda. P. S. Comments and wishes to this mail, I hope, will be? Yours Alinka. To Alina, on September, 22nd, 0-15 (See you tomorrow!) The comment one: it is good, that you exist — in pink pizhamke which I never saw and now hardly I will see! About any hvorjah and speeches cannot be after your tender mails! From its part: quiet, tender, SNOVIDJASHCHEJ (?) nights! Yours Lyosha. Alyoshe, on September, 22nd, 23-51 (Au!!!) Lyosh, you in the Internet??? Behind a window — a rain, and on a shower — toshno and as it is cloudy (though I like a rain!). Smoke. To Alina, on September, 22nd, 23-56 (zdesja!) Alina, I zdesja, yes something communications between us is mute. From what? Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 23rd, 0-02 (Weather forecast!) I do not know, how at you, and at me over my cogitative radar thoughts-flashes on you sparkle. Whether a certain thought-lightning … is most that on there is a communication?! And? Really you think, what I otpisyvajus? The smoking. To Alina, on September, 23rd, 0-07 (Burn down me!) Alas, Alinas, I and think, that you otpisyvaeshsja. Where they — your lightnings-flashes? They do not reach me. I do not feel fire-heat. If it though is a little — burn down me bravely. To me than more hotly, the ognjannee (?) — the more joyfully, is more sweet, more happily. Smoke, add feelings in the mails! Do not constrain emotions (if they are). And in general — explain to me in love! Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 23rd, 0-17 (Like as fiery) Lyosh, here a pressure! In my opinion, it you burn!!! I already hear hissing! Certainly, I will burn down! 1. I in pizhamke. 2. To Matryonushki I reach specially for you … 3. I remember your kisses … 4. I re-read your-our mails … 5. I long … 6. At me a gentle, soft and velvety breast … 7. To me it is already hot … 8. To a grief … 9. I finish … (the Joke!!!) Well here — again all was reduced to THIS theme. Well the such! Fused I. P. S. That you podostyl also have smiled: I get from wide trouser-legs — In size with a can … Look, envy: I am a citizen, Instead of any citizen! :-))) To Alina, on September, 23rd, 0-20 (Now that's something like it!) Well, Alinas, thanks!!! Such even I did not expect! Has terminated (joking apart). And in general — joking apart: I WANT YOU! What you will tell? Alyoshka. Alyoshe, on September, 23rd, 0-25 (I such!) Pleasantly! It is sweet! Flatterly! Ahead a dream if it is the general, that is to ours, — give we will arrange there with a sex bed! And about a real meeting — I have told: possibly, on Friday. Suffer! Alinka. Alyoshe, on September, 23rd, 22-39 (That? Where? When?) Called to you two times somewhere about six, like took nobody a tube (though I long and did not wait). How mood? And in general — as itself? Excuse, that so annoyingly I question. Simply I wish to know, how you lived today WITHOUT me. Smoke. To Alina, on September, 23rd, 23-01 (Something. Somewhere. Once.) Alina, hi, first. Secondly, in psychology absence of the reference in the letter or conversation very much about much speaks (by the way, at Faulza has just read a scene where it is beaten). Thirdly, I just hoped to see you in regional library (and there the POETRY holiday lasted akkurat from 16-30 till), but you, possibly, have decided to leave absolutely from litzhizni. Fourthly, at last, WITHOUT YOU I live always badly. And you know it. And even at it you laugh. Severely, but under the relation to me it is fair. However (it — fifthly), mood not so and self-destructive: has looked a "Site" series, tomorrow me TV "Policy" at 10-00 will come to remove … the Life is gone-proceeds. Sex only it is small — here an ill luck! And at you how are you doing? How has lived day WITHOUT me? Mood excellent? Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 23rd, 23-14 (Miracle field) Lyosh, LYOSHA, LyoSHa!!! About the reference it is valid — has forgotten (but without malicious intention). Has not understood — what library and where "Policy" you how you were expressed will come — to "remove" (home or on faculty)? Mood like perfectly in order. Sex at us with you — see you tomorrow will wait! Just from Moscow from Zamzueva has received the letter: when I will be there on a meeting of young poets — he wishes to meet. In my opinion, good idea — though I will look on it Zamzueva. What did today after study? Played a computer, to you two times called (it seems, I already repeat), observed, how during the lunchtime at us on the area before windows have constructed a cordon and the whole hour neutralised a fighting grenade, there has arrived also "Fast", and militia, and pozharka, and the Ministry of Emergency Measures. And granatku (in nature fighting, not the toy!) someone has put akkurat under a shop near to an oak where we obnimalis-kissed once you … Still I today ate, the saw (exclusively tea), wrote (time, probably, 7-10), Lenka to me came: told, that wishes to tempt any 18-year-old virgin. Here such pisjulki (sorry!). The Alinka-hooligan. Alyoshe, on September, 24th, 22-48 (the Evening mail) Enamoured (?!!!) you mine, Alexey Domashnev! 1. telezapis on "Policy" — cool. Especially there, where about your spouse who supposedly abuses for intimate scenes in your products: and it would be desirable me to the journalist (the girl it specific!) to bite concerning the pseudo-wife (or not pseudo?) 2. I jump — look at photograph Zamzueva: in my opinion — anything so, it is nice. 3. The reference to its page stihirnuju — www.stihi.ru/author.html? zamzuev 4. Again jump. You were today such lovely and native! Mine Lyoshka and all! Thanks that you suffer me — such silly woman impossible. I amuse myself hope that HAS sated you for all week while I will be in Moscow. Do not take in head to change to me!!! Yours Alinka. To Alina, on September, 24th, 23-10 (It is full?.) Alina, native — thanks for point of 4th from all tired soul!!! About "satiety" it is problematic, but fidelity I swear! That kasaemo poet Zamzueva it, in my opinion, is more awful than the surname — the person of the pervert! Lena-journalist from "Policy" has begun the day before yesterday our conversation-negotiations by phone with a phrase that has learnt my co-ordinates FROM my WIFE. So it was necessary to accompany, when it has asked a question as the wife to mine "eroticheskim" to scenes-episodes in books concerns. Yes well them!!! The main thing, I have felt today (especially after your call in the evening), that I still «yours Lyoshka», and it so heat me … I admit still to you (it I again about "satiety"), that Vasily in any way ugomonjaetsja and with melancholy as though questions me, all shivering from pressure: What is up? Why to me do not give "food" much? Till what time, the owner, and???!!! That to it to answer — and I do not know. Suffer, the friend-companion, I speak, we will thaw sometime Alinochka, will cease to leave from us with you for the night about the Matryonoj — as there it? — Ivanovnoj … Good, Alinas, if on business: I very much am afraid, that this small hot spark which zateplilsja today, will go out for a week of new separation … Me strains, that you go to Moscow with a gopher: as though it is necessary to live at its relatives, instead of in hostel Litinstituta, as all participants of a meeting … However, itself I understand, that I bear nonsenses. I like you! What to do? Alexey. Alyoshe, on September, 24th, 23-28 (raskuksilas) Eh, Alexey, Aleksejushka!!! What to do? If knew, hrenju everyone (sorry!) on a life did not toil! Here Chernyshevsky, has set, a pancake, rhetorical voprosishche! I do not know, Lyosh, I do not know! Excuse me, Vasily, excuse!!! Lyosh, I admit to you, that I after all wished you to ask to go with me to Moscow, but have not dared … And one I cannot go, and mum with papikom would not release one — all of them still consider me as the little girl. Good night! You only come to me, to my world of dreams! There we WILL be sated the friend with the friend! Yours Dymochka. To Alina, on September, 25th, 13-24 (the Successful trip!) Alinka, cease to push me to distortions!!! Never any "sleepy" affinity will replace to me you LIVE. I like you, I want you, I think only of you — ALL: both a shower, and a body … Not be severe, not be ratsionalistkoj, not be QUIET and, please, do not deceive yourself … It — for meditations in Moscow when with the gopher you will be pressed out. And here to you still my parting word: catch there in capital good luck, be modest, behave well, think and miss about me, necessarily somehow give a news, impatiently wait for a meeting, adjust itself on KINDNESS and MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING. By the way (it I to a word) from October, 1 till October, 3rd I will be at home ONE (not considering Fursa Ivanycha), for D. N too goes to capital. Is about what to think … Whole in sweet your lips and while it is virtual in the CORE you!!! Yours Lyosha. Alyoshe, on September, 25th, 13-27 (It is accepted to data) Thanks, Lyosh, for a parting word! I promise to carry out all your wishes-excitements for me! It is good, that you are!!! About "obzhimany" in Moscow — be not loaded: at me tomorrow krantik opens … Whole it is hot! Yours Alinka. To Alina, on September, 25th, 22-55 (After!) Alina Naumovna Latunkina! I have understood one awfully sad true: without you Rams — it is empty. My girl! You lay now on a carload shelf (I hope — in compartment and on bottom?), you can not fall asleep and you think-grieve of me … To me so it dumaetsja-is dreamt. At me — melancholy not melancholy, but grief universal. In general, all for some reason so is ridiculous, silly, fantastic and even is awful. I do not know what to do … However, I will wait for you. Come back. I so hope, that all at us with you will be good. That you WILL recover. That you WILL regain consciousness … See you, native! Alexey. P. S. Has found out on a computer and has re-read a slice from «Games in classics» Hulio Cortazar — vchitajsja-ponder also you: «But the love, what word... Moralist Orasio, without the deep bases afraid of passions, this become puzzled ugrjumets, in a city where the love shouts from names of all streets, from all houses, all apartments, rooms, beds, from all dreams, all zabveny and all memoirs. Love washing, I like you, not for the sake of myself, not for the sake of you, not for the sake of both of us, I like you not because my blood boils in me and calls to like you, I like and I want you because you doing not wash because you — on that party, on other coast and therefrom call me to jump to you, and I cannot jump, for, how much I ovladeyoval you, you — not in me, I do not overtake you, not postiyogaju you further your body, your smile and, happens, suffer because, that you me like (to what like you this verb — to "like", as is elaborate you drop it on plates, on bedsheets, in the bus), me torments your love, which does not become the bridge, because cannot the bridge lean only on one coast, neither Right, nor Le Corbusier would not construct the bridge leaning only on one coast, and do not look at me, please, the bird's eyes, for you love procedure is too simple, and will recover you from love before me though you and like me so, As I do not like you. Certainly, you will recover, you live simply and sensibly, and after me you will have somebody else, the man to replace or a brassiere — what difference. Sadly to listen to this cynic Orasio who wants love-admission, love-provodniyoka, love which would become it a key and a revolver and would allocate with one thousand argusovyh an eye, has presented it vezdesushchnostju and silence in which music is born, would give a root from which it is possible to spin a fabric of words. To what it is silly, after all all it dozes in you, it is necessary tolyoko, like the Japanese flower, to plunge into a glass with voyodoj, and gradually will start to make the way multi-coloured leyopestki, to bulk up and be bent — and the beauty will reveal. You giving to me infinity, excuse me, I am not able to take it. You stretch me an apple, and I have left vstavyonuju a jaw in a bedroom on a bedside table. Stop, here so. I can be and rough, imagine. Properly present, for the such does not pass for nothing. Why — stop? I am afraid, that I will start to be engaged podyodelkoj, it so is easy. From here you take thought, from that shelf you get feeling and you connect them by means of words, these black a bough. And in general leaves: I in own way like you. And in particular: I wish you. A conclusion: I like you. And so there live many my friends, not speaking about the uncle and two my cousins, is blind verjayoshchih in love-to-own-spouse … Many believe, as if the love consists in choosing the woman and to marry it. Also choose, I swear to you, itself saw. Unless it is possible to choose in love, unless the love is not a lightning which amazes you suddenly, nails to the earth in the middle of a court yard. You will tell, that potomu-to-i-vybi-rajut-chto-ljubjat, and I think, that borot-nao-. Beatrice do not choose, Juliette do not choose. Do not choose a downpour which falls upon heads leaving of a concert hall and in a moment promachivaet them to a thread. But I at myself in a room also spin one slovesa, and these black suki revenge as can and bite me under a table. As prayovilno: bite under a table or bite under a table? What difference, all the same bite … » Mine Alinochke! On September, 27th, 23-30 (Penja) Alina, today there was at us a faculty meeting, and all present (Minutko, Century T, etc.) have asked me: well as there ours Latunkina in Moscow? When I have answered, that I do not know — they were awfully amazed: how, Latunkina to you, Alexey Alekseevich, has not called, has not reported, whether all there is perfectly in order and whether meeting job has begun? That you — I answered, — it, latunkina, even the muzhik in me does not see, not that that the professor-philologist and zavkafedroj literatures which it is necessary to keep informed litseminara young poets … It, speak, first, and secondly, you know, what naprjazhyonka in Moscow with phones and the Internet centres! Almost as in Gelendzhike. potsokali languages and — have lagged behind. But my authority-image on their eyes even more has gone down. I as if behind papers have got into the safe and imperceptibly tear from an eye (right) have wiped-has dried up … Melancholy! You would not vanish, and? Already become bored it is boundless Alexey Alekseevich Domashnev. To my Alina, on September, 28th, 23-56 (I Understand …) Alina, native! I understand: you bathe at poetic ocean of a meeting, you not to me. Sadly! At me the computer was enraged (that adds moods!), has erased and has reinstalled Vindovs and the second day I reinstall all programs. Weather brings the mite: dozhzhi (even — dozhzhzhzhzhzhzhzhi!) with thunder-storms — mokrjad and dampness. Oh-ho-ho! Blja-a-a! And Faulz — in general has let down: I envied, as 50-year-old its autohero and the 20-year-old girl-actress well love each other, and it in the next chapter has sent Denielu the vast letter-confession, as it trahnulas with another as it "entered" into it as sexual intercourse wonderfully proceeded at them more than hour … Fie! All of you, women … (I Stop!!!) If tomorrow any news from you I will not receive, you already will become for me Alina Naumovnoj (zri the addressee of mails). See you, all-is equal-liked! I wait and miss!!! Domashnev. To Alina Naumovne, on September, 29th, 23-11 (However!) M-m-mda-a-a! Alina, is not present words, one emotions. It is visible, the rights the Eskimo saying: out of sight, out of mind, however! Do not take in head at a meeting (if she is) to assure as if COULD not call or a mail to send … DID NOT WANT!!! Ku-ku! Has gone bludovat. In Russian speaking — snoshatsja. Greetings to Moscow! Alexey. Not to my Alina, on September, 30th, 23-32 (Existential …) I Alina! I remember in the first "razluchnom" a mail have written, that Rams without you is empty. Alas, it has appeared, that in general all world without you is empty. And literally. The sensation such, that in general is not present you in this world, you have dreamt me, you have dreamt to me, and it is a sweet-severe joke vyshnih forces … Though, of course, an edge of a realistic brain I understand-realise, that you now are in the car and, maybe, are gone-come back to Rams … (By the way, strange symbolics of events: as soon as baranovsky fast — if you only go with it — have got under way from Paveletsky station at 22-10 as in Baranove the downpour though all the day long was solar has rushed.) By the way, you cannot understand one simple thing in any way, that yours here this thoughtless, not clear and irresponsible devil-may-care relation to me — not so is insulting, as is bitter. Understand, that I grieve-miss for you when you disappear not so much (so was when you have called from a beach and promised to send a mail, and itself at home did not spend the night so was with Gelendzhikom …), how much I worry — whether happen with you of what trouble … I Worry more strongly papika and mamika! Today was at faculty after a dinner, and to me my old acquaintance Arina — the effective woman 35‑ти years (in my opinion, Minutko there and then in it vtjurilsja on most I I can not) has come — and has told, in particular supposedly while you waited the whole hour, went on offices-chairs (she here knows many), and the person to me is so much spoke about any your perfect novel with any Alina, and said with such envy … Clearly, that I have only bitterly grinned. Here so, native washing, is more correct — I Alina! Very much I wish to hope, that with you very well and tomorrow at last I will hear your angelic voice at first at least in a telephone tube. D. N leaves for two days to Moscow in the evening (you will meet it and will miss each other somewhere on a junction!) … Well — see you? Or you, and the truth, no, unbodied and silent you mine?! Alexey. |
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