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2. Koitus (7)
To Alexey, on May, 1st, 0-56 (Two reasons) 1. The main in a life is to LIKE: not hiding from anybody, not meeting in another's apartment, not dividing a roof with the unloved person … 2. I do not wish more anything to hear neither about Maria, nor about your devil's D. N! The clear head and the beauty. To Alexey, on May, 1st, 1-31 (Au!) Alexey, you where? You know, that you are always necessary, necessary for me, as air!!! Respond, I ask! Alinka. To my Alina, on May, 1st, 8-05 (Good morning, the girl!) Alinka, good morning! Still an eye has not torn also gymnastics has not made, and — to you! All at us is good! Tomorrow - at 14-00 any cataclysm (give the God!) will not prevent us to meet. In half an hour I will glance — I will see: you have read or not this note. Let's love each other, and the Destiny will be on our party — believe. Whole it is gentle in honey your sponges! Alexey. P. S. Urgently return in the address «To mine Lyoshenke»!!! I at myself as you see, too have changed. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 1st, 10-28 (Shout) Lyosha! Give we will agree: to answer mails always even if the INSULT has started to inflame. Will suffice each other nerves to wind! I waited yesterday for your answer — I do not know how much! And the INSULT has thrust far and deeply … Zolottse mine, I ask you: brains tumanit the rest will suffice me about Destiny and all bla-bla-bla! The situation neither to the right, nor to the left does not vary: you there with D. N (promised after all not to mention your girl-friend!) stishatami laugh yes conversations-dismantlings of entertain! Here both all Destiny and its components! And after all is also I which is not entered in your amicable company! If you do not wish to throw out D. N from the life why it and in mine should register?! You there before it are justified, as dvoechnik, but in your life there is I, only I, and anybody, except me, in it should not be! You have your girl-konfetochka, and you live with other woman and in a moustache the prickly do not blow! Long this komed will proceed?! And how the Destiny will appear on our party?! Your superfluous. P. S. With a holiday of the 1st of May! To my Alina, on May, 1st, 17-40 (it is not necessary to force …) Alinka, I congratulate you on a holiday of spring and work, that is — the 1st of May! What kasaemo dismantlings (it after all — dismantlings?) we with you break ours with you the contract: till January, 7th of next year a problem of a joint life not to put, not to touch and not to discuss … Give we will suffer. It is the first variant. The second (for which I stand up for a long time): give we will find in themselves neznamo skoko forces, determination and nonsense, and poherim ours with you friendship-love to rastakoj mothers immediately and now! I speak it quite seriously (in spite of the fact that lexicon yornicheskaja pryot whence): our love — a crime; our love — anomaly; our love — a nonsense … Never (I am afraid and even it is assured) you with me will not be happy, and if now feel-test a certain similarity of happiness it is temporary, prehodjashche, for a short while, tupikovo … You should live, you should have fun, you should bathe in adoration and subordination (that you adored and submitted to you in all unconditionally), you should rule, you should use the power of the beauty dimensionlessly, you should be, at last, with the liked person all 24 hours a day already now, immediately, not postponing, not waiting any foolish terms and dates … I, of course, will die, if it occurs (you me will leave), but after all I all the same will die sooner or later. Your conscience should be quiet: I RELEASE YOU! I know, that should make it, and I will make it (that is I will not cry, ask, reproach, beg, keep …) And I will finish all this crap at all in tone: For God's sake, stop loving me … AS it is possible LATER!!! Yours and only yours — I. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 1st, 22-24 (I Like only you!) I have come, I have returned! Has got tired of the old life in which today at some o'clock has come back! I think of you constantly! Tomorrow I will spill all tenderness in you — any more I will not keep it! Pretty mine, I have very much become bored of you! How in that case not to be sad?! At nine o'clock has sailed away with «heppi byozdej» (for me it was far not "heppi") and in the bus cherished-bore thought that now I will come home — I will come into the Internet, and there long-awaited pismetso from my liked little man! After all you are: in my life and on a planet in general! See you tomorrow, Lyoshenka! Though in a dream to you to touch! At me the real (and physical too!) lomka! You — my drug, without which — a pipe (has greased all the firmachnyj style with this mot!) The whole. Gain strength! Good night! Yours I. P. S. Thanks that has helped (in this case I about mail)! As you, probably, have already understood — all have established also all have earned! You give me a holiday the care! After all I so wish to be necessary! To YOU necessary! To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 2nd, 22-50 (Report) Lyosha! I inform you the main news. 1. The nose has absolutely refused to breathe — so tomorrow about any trip to Lenke and speech cannot be! Even the brother has expelled in a hall to sleep — there is nothing to breathe all night long my infection! Typical ORZ. A head as a brick, but the soul is easier than a mote: flies, sings, rejoices! I will be treated, soared, read tomorrow Feodor Mihajlovicha. That to the middle of week to present to you itself — blossoming and zdorovenkuju (rather)! 2. At home at me all is silent. Even if D. N also called — relatives were not (on a summer residence ploughed), they hardly before me have returned. 3. The regional newspaper, it appears, to us yesterday have not brought, probably, tomorrow deliver: on mail, probably, on May, 1st and 2 — days off. So mine «poetic masterpieces» in it I, neither papik, nor mamik did not see, did not behold. 4. And how there at you in the field of fight? I hope, that without serious losses (nerves protect!). 5. Day was today perfect (despite which-whose espionage!). Thanks you that you do me such happy! Lyosha, you — my life: present, colour, immense … I am dissolved in you, and minutes of our affinity (!!!!!!!) and for a long time! You — my Universe which sees only I! … But I know, that that Universe In your embraces to me opens! 6. Good, has gone «Скорость-2» to look. We Vstretimsja-will communicate after a film. We will stay a little bit Sandroj the Bullock and Kianu Rivz (though a plot I do not know, can, to it there and not so carries!). And nevertheless it is healthy — to look the same film and to think about each other! You understand, that we always together, at us the mental Internet! See you! P. S. The brother will sleep in a hall, therefore in not Those on time and freedom (from superfluous eyes!) I will be unlimited. Though you, probably, have got tired of dismantlings, and it would be desirable bainki. And still remind of itself a mail. Though YOU also cannot be forgotten to me! You always with me: in a head and heart! Happy-sick. To my Alina, on May, 3rd, 0-45 (Pluses and minuses) Alina, at me all is rather quiet: there was a boycott, slightly tears behind a wall and even the request to type its verses on a computer. It is plus. With Kianu Rivz us have inflated in «Скорости-2». Only Sandra the Bullock. And it is not enough of it. Good night? AND. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 3rd, 18-20 (the News from yours Alinochki) Greetings, zolottse! I think of you, I am treated … I work and I have a rest (means 2 in 1)! You very much do not suffice me! Without your caress somehow I do not recover! Think of me! These are 100 % ‑ noe a medicine for everyone hvori! Lyosha! I hope (very much!!!), plans for tomorrow have not changed (at 12-00 at a stop). Write me otvetik-acknowledgement. I leave at 23-00 on the First to «to Anna and the king». And you? The film will end late — at 1-40. I am afraid, my tired little body will breathe heavily even earlier. Therefore in the Internet I will not crawl, you not serchaj, my sun! I will read your mail tomorrow. I cross the thin graceful fingers that the tomorrow's meeting has taken place, and I have got out on the nature to take a breath of fresh air together with my liked person! What can be better and more perfect than it? In advance I wish you honey dreams and my honey lips. Present, that I you whole before a dream and then our meeting will occur even earlier! I kiss you! See you tomorrow! Good night, the darling! Your girl. To my Alina, on May, 3rd, 22-58 (the News from yours Lyoshechki) I too. I too. I too. I too. I too. (And more hundred times — I too!) The whole. I like. I think. I miss. I wait for a meeting. I grieve. Yes, tomorrow at 12-00! Go look foolish films!!! Lyoshka. To my Alina, on May, 4th, 10-00 (Councils skilled) Alina, zolottse, with the kindest in the morning you! Just in case (small children — are unreasonable!) I remind-prompt, that on feet it is necessary to put on krossovki (or shoes without heels), and a head necessarily something, covering temechko from the sun. Gut? If, as always, hardly I will be a bit late — be not anxious: buy juice, small draughts drink in tenyochke and wait for me at least hours till 17-00. Careful Lyosha. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 4th, 10-10 (Haljasyo!) It will be made, the uncle the Lyosha-adult! Your girl. To my Alina, on May, 4th, 23-14 (Bla-go-yes-rju!) Alina, thanks you for a today!!! The happiness, that you is! You do not find, that we with you have made today a feat, that we heroes of-kilometres 15 on foot plus 4 (four!) merges of bodies (well and a shower, certainly!) … who would award us with medals or ordenkami? However, we with you for itself and for each other o-o th what awards — the truth, my happiness?! Sleep, gain strength. Whole it is strong and it is sweet the lips which have swelled from kisses! AND. AND. D. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 5th, 20-36 (I that, heartless, whether that?!) Lyosha! The darling! I have become bored of you, very much-very! I HAVE become bored! Souls in you not to tea! I think, I think, I think … and so in unlimited degree!!! Sweet you mine! You there save up for me the titbit of (???) see you tomorrow! Listen, I here undertook to re-read your stories, have reached «the Dog life» and so has burst into tears — all my protective cynicism has failed, as a house of cards. It is sick for the live: directly — our perfect terrible life! Sadly and toshno became. It is good, that you at me are — I will think, and the soul again shines brightly! You at me are — mine Lyoshka! I think only of you! I like more lives!!! Your teargas. To my Alina, on May, 5th, 23-08 (And I that, bald, whether that???) Alina, and I that, bald, whether that??? And I unless have not become bored???!!! Yes has become bored!!! Oh as has become bored!!! Oh as you to me like the perebaryvaniem the age and brought up (grown) cynicism and pofigizma. Cry, pleasure washing, cry — both over Dostoevsky, and over Domashnevym (ek I have screwed — it is thin?), and over others baranovskimi writers (you though in a course, what in Baranove are profpisatelskaja the organisation the person in forty?) … And in general — I LIKE YOU! I know, that now you sit and you look forward to hearing (as hundred nightingales wait for red summer!), but here, excuse, native, here it is necessary to make and send three important mails (two has already made), so minutes through 10 and we will meet. To pobachenja, kohanaja! Lyosha. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 6th, 0-17 (Begin to see clearly faster!) More slowly, horses … All whom to be proud it is possible in today's baranovskoj for the literature, on fingers it is possible to count: you yes poet Alexander Teljatnikov, the others — pisplankton. I practically tried to read all of them (recently, you know, tolstennyj the collection «Baranovsky the writer: the XXI-st century» left) — one headache! I even have thought (it is a compliment to you): as it is good, that you not a member (excuse, Vaska!) them pissojuza! And to a question on cynicism … You at all did not see, how I cry — here you would learn, what I present: vulnerable, romantic, gentle, kind, copresent, sensitive, thin … Oh, oh, oh! A sentimentality overcomes. After all anybody does not know me! You though learn yes estimate! At you a shower gold, you can like how anybody, perhaps, is not able! You at all do not imagine — what I ESPECIAL and how much deeply all I feel. It I to you confess, so to say, to soul for the night I give vent! In me it is exactly so much cynicism, how much in asphalt of shades of the white! I another! I shout, I declare it here and now! You should make out-decipher it! The writer you mine, I hope, when I will appear in your creation — that I will be present, instead of such what many me represent! Your angel. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 6th, 23-18 (Today I was in paradise) My love! I have visited today in the seventh sky! You were such gentle, passionate, sensitive, tender, well simply remarkable! Give me the life, washing for a long time already yours! I in your power, I belong only to you! Thanks! Has got tired very much. I go to sleep, of course, with thought on you! At us today force-majeur circumstances with an exit in the Internet. I do not know, when you will look out, therefore I wish you good night and paradise dreams! Has gone to a bed. We will meet in a dream! I like! I live! I am disconnected. Tomorrow since morning I will read your answer. I miss! I like! I wait! Yours sladenkaja. To my Alina, on May, 6th, 23-45 (I too!) I too, my pleasure! (In sense — was on the top of the world!) Mutually! (In sense — I miss, I like, I wait!) Spy, spy and spy — till the morning and with sweet dreams. I kiss you! Your god. P. S. I send you pair sramnyh photos from the Internet — as an example of "hairdresses" for Matryony. Look, take into consideration and at once erase from a disk. And that oparafinishsja before the brother. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 7th, 9-00 (About ringlets) Well Lyoshka, well shkodnik! Such photos a shameless computer you torment! With a paint it was (almost filled in, when has with half an eye looked! Hairdresses lovely, but very inconvenient and discomfortable. One business just once popozirovat in front of the chamber with such erotic head of hear and to go through a tomorrow's intolerable itch in entom a place, an another matter — 5 times a week to correct this work of art and to suffer from a bristle, reddening, irritation and (again sorry!) pochesuhi! Good, that it I with foam at a mouth prove inconvenience of the given hairdresser's product as if you this hairstyle to do! And still for education I thank! Your taste to me is clear now! Tonight — "FZ" (to me, the truth, was so pleasantly, that you about it have recollected!). We will meet after 23-00. You excuse, but I will come on appointment simply cut shortly THERE — as always, without any modern gadgets! TSaluju you in YOUR HAIRDRESS (is more correct — Vasinu)! P. S. «Notting Hill» has seen: a lovely melodrama with sense of humour! Your not curly. To my Alina, on May, 7th, 23-56 (Again oblom!) Alina, again I can not wait the answer. Today precisely not I will look out still then in a web window leaf for for the sake of not knowing that. Concerning "hairdress" and "ringlets": has recollected a classical photo bared Bridzhit Bardo — has found in the Internet and I send. Whether it is the sample for imitation!!!??? The whole! Has not become bored! Not … it is fine, on it I will stop. Perhaps at you that happens … The following mail will be more tender. Ku-ku! Alexey. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 8th, 10-45 (I Miss and I whine!) Good morning, my light in a window! And as it so has turned out, that we have not understood yesterday each other. You have written, that the following mail will be more tender, and I began to wait this TENDER. And you in the meantime (as I then have already understood!) waited for my answer. Good, to hell tediousness and naked indecent aunts for the night (I ask you — there were no to me more these, sorry, potaskannyh women!). If you did not kiss me yesterday before a dream and did not miss (as itself have written!) I whined from melancholy on you and pined without your sweet kisses! And now I whine and I pine — more soon you to see and be some hours the PRESENT life! I very strongly like you, strict and exacting you mine! Your girl. To my Alina, on May, 8th, 12-59 (Tender) My girl! I look forward our meeting. At 17-00. I have become bored of you. You dreamt today me. Whole 11 (eleven) times!!! Everywhere!!!!! Lyoshka. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 8th, 23-41 (Thanks for all!) The liked! How there your affairs? Or D. N has arranged and whether came Tails with Ostroverhovym? Your sight as I have understood, meant discontent with that in the bus I have sat down to the boy — simply other empty places were inconvenient (high), and I, without thinking twice, have sat down, where is comfortable and is closer to an exit. My sun, except you, for me exists nobody, no! You are a person whom I am ready to wait and like how I can and I am able! You allow to BURN AND BLAZE to me, after all I like you of more sky, stars and clouds (and for a semiangel it so is important!). Today, when I went near to you along the street, I have understood it: without you I cannot live, create, smile! Do not leave my life, after all I wish to present to you it! Tomorrow I will leave on a summer residence of hours in 11, and I will come, I think, hours per 7-8 evenings. I there have decided popjanstvovat — to note on May, 9th. Perhaps I will sit with them hour or so-other. Up one place I will dig, put, water and think only of you every second and to be warmed (promised an appreciable cold snap!) thought that we together, belong each other and we LIKE! I yours! Only in your heavens to me to live, an angel you mine! Smoke. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 9th, 10-24 I (Propose marriage) Good morning, my miracle! With a holiday! At me the campaign on a summer residence is excellent. Why? There: coldly also it is windy, slush and a dirt, tomorrow one more day off. If you of the same opinion — today it is possible to meet. You are very necessary to me! All night long today did not sleep — of you thought. vtjurilas I in you completely! Alina. To my Alina, on May, 9th, 10-53 (I concordant!) Alina, hi, smart guy (the pigeon!) mine (mine)! Moods — a zero. Even — a minus. Yesterday what for, the fool, popyorsja to Hvostovu (they with Ostroverhovym waited for me under a bush at an entrance), has drunk there what for a wine wine-glass (the first wine-glass for three with superfluous year!), listened to their drunk delirium … Unique advantage: they much that have talked a lot about mood of cathedral opposition: well, whether you know, I at all did not expect such heat of hatred. They most D. N will surpass! And D. N to me plesh increases. Its these idiots have inflamed yesterday with calls (called every 20 minutes and asked: whether I have come at last home from parties). That it shouted yesterday — was heard by all vagabonds in district from Quay to station. Today since the morning continuation has begun. I am am rescued (rather) only by my persistent silence. Me, fortunately, has jammed, and I am silent, as molodogvardeets on interrogation. Naturally, the kitchen garden too has cancelled. Now I get down to work. About evening … If all will be normal, give we will meet hours at 16-00 at our shop. And — at once, excuse, a mercantile theme: I, alas, have settled all limit of this week (at me now a limit!) so if you will forget for a while, what I the man (boyfriend), and you the girl (taken care?) you can take to celebratory tea spice-cake "Tula" or pair of "Honey" cakes. Gut? With a holiday you the Victory! AND. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 9th, 22-34 (And I live you!) Lyoshenka, the darling, thanks for a today's fairy tale! You still ALL in me! And not only memoirs, a smell — it is LITERALLY! At me, probably, even temperature … D. N, podi, rows? Fasten, druzhochek, I with you! Remember me! Whole strong-strong, passionately-passionately and you, and hooligan Vasku (that he allowed today itself(himself)!!!). Alinushka. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 10th, 15-16 (I already at home!)
Buzzing baj, ogorodik, till the best times (is more exact, to following days off!). And hellou, my sun (behind a window the rain goes!), mine Lyoshechka, my love! Only has moved from a summer residence towards the house — as a rain me obkatil! Has come home mokrenkaja, solyonenkaja, in general, I would be pleasant to you. Has dug up a solid site (I am praised!). Thought of you, reflected, analyzed, recollected, grieved … you Look, and behind the back of already o-o th how much zemlitsy dug over. Here so I (in brief) have worked today: with a shovel in a hand and YOU in a head. On the nature it is good — air fresh, birdies sing, the breeze … Only for full happiness does not suffice you. And here I have thought, that you too, probably, now on a kitchen garden work and think of me during this moment. So, we always TOGETHER! Better Sergey Aseev not to express now my feelings to you: I cannot live without you! To me and during rains without you — sush, To me and in a heat without you — styt, To me without you and Moscow — a solitude, To me without you each hour — for about a year; If time to crush, splitting up! To me even the dark blue heavenly arch It seems stone without you. I wish to know nothing — Poverty of friends, fidelity of enemies, I wish to wait for nothing, Except your precious steps. Your Alina. To my Alina, on May, 10th, 15-50 (it is cleverer Lyoshi than an animal is not present!) Pleasure washing, it is glad, that you were washed off by rains-downpours and you have safely come-doshlyopala home! Once again (already absolutely superfluous!) I was convinced, that — vumnyj as vutka, only votrubi I do not eat. Во-1-х, as heart felt — the campaign has postponed for a kitchen garden till the best times. Во-2-х, has refused flatly 1,5 hours back to go with D. N on a cemetery (that she very much wanted with a view of time reconciliation and is quiet-mild life within days) — and now it somewhere there floats on an umbrella among crosses and tombs. (It not gloating, is fact ascertaining.) В-3-х, I even left was behind bread in shop (when the downpour hardly has ceased), but have had a look from a porch at the sky and have understood: provocations rain have not come to an end — has returned, and here the SUCH has begun!. And Aseev's verses — a class! It, probably, the best, that he has created. Thanks! (It is not so much for verses, how much — for feelings!) From bad news: D. N in a course, that I drive you on any apartment (its word) so it is necessary to double (?) care and podpolnost. Behind this (and for this) at last has reached and the main thing: whether I have become bored of you, my beauty??? Yes better and not to ask!!! Intensive correspondence I do not promise within the next 3 hours, as I start to work (but the GOOD letter in pair phrases I will answer), at 19-00 (having had supper or in parallel) I start viewing of "the Curve mirror» on 1 channel, at 21-20, maybe, I will look any «the Crimson rivers» in the same place, and at 23-30 if there will be a mail from you — I will react roughly … Here such plans-bastings. Whole in a callosity fresh (after all for certain tutochki they, darling, after a summer residence — on the where it is necessary places!?). Alex. To my Alina, on May, 10th, 23-19 (Guten abend!) Here it I. Has looked a film with Jean Reno. Horror (in sense — a thriller), anything it is not clear, but like as though anything so … Au, and you tutochki? I so have become bored of you, that have named today D. N "Alina": that was — can guess … Alyosha. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 10th, 23-33 (I tuta!) Interestingly, and as you it usually name: Dashej, Darya?. I too "Lyoshej" have called today to the brother. On what he has smiled also has told nothing. Become bored. P. S. And a film of anything — difficult. Such to me like. To my Alina, on May, 10th, 23-42 (In any way) In any way I it do not name. Has forgotten, as I it name. Perhaps, in general I do not name in any way. I do not name, possibly, in any way … I am better than you once again I will name: Alina! Alinochka!! Alja!!! Alinka!!!! Alinochek!!!!! Alinas!!!!!! alinusja!!!!!!!! Alintoto at last!!!!!!!!!!!! Well and, certainly, Alina Naumovna!!!!!!!!!! Let's be on this exclamatory note and to be excused. Tomorrow, maybe, give the God, and we will meet! Good night! Dream me. (It not the request — the order!) Alex (eks-eks … sex!). To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 10th, 23-50 (Clearly) Alintoto it is ingenious! I so have become bored, from mind, probably, I will descend: it is impossible (it is impossible!!!) every second to think about same — YOU, after all can jam definitively! Give we will dream each other! Good night, my love! See you tomorrow. Alina Naumovna. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 11th, 20-49 (Long live Victoria!) Greetings! Your beauty sighs on you! Eh, Lyoshka, Lyoshka, well can be more perfect than what we are happy? We after all are happy?! Other all — the orange-peel which outwardly saves fruit, but does not influence its taste! And in a life — circumstances vsjaki different happen, but they do not change in us a core! In other words, what who spoke-did, we all the same love each other! You remember, how at Simonov: «to All death to spite … to understand waiting it …. Simply we (this mot already author's!) were able to wait, as anybody others (and it too!) …» Let's stand! We will win! We will be together! Your optimist. P. S. I send to Gin Devis. The truth after all — is similar to your Masha? To my Alina, on May, 11th, 22-55 (About abusings …) About love (a happiness synonym) … Alina, you abuse, you zlozloupotrebljaesh, you zlozlozloupotrebljaesh pronouncing (writing) of this is timid-rare word-concept. Give about love we will not speak, give about it we will keep silent … And in general, if seriously, you as if convince yourself, that like … Such impression. From a photo Gins Devis are similar little bit black-and-white images. And — give we will close this theme. I am am got here by mosquitoes and D. N, therefore I such dyorganyj. Excuse! Now kofejku I will take a sip — I will become kinder perhaps. AND. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 11th, 23-28 (On hands!) Well, mine dyorganyj, we will not be about l … — so we will not be! How kofeyok — tasty was? With Maria I will try to fasten in the memory big-very big knot! At you the impression was made, that I supposedly convince myself, that l … ju you — with it I will argue, argue and more time to argue! And here that you convince yourself that Maria in the past — is painfully obvious! Good, each other we will not upset at this time of night. Write to me chavo-nt warm, without this worn out word on the letter "l", but only chur rather warm and gentle! Yours zajka. To my Alina, on May, 11th, 23-39 (Sweet Glucose) Alina, I here have got on the Glucose site — to it, it appears, 17 years in total otpad! I send you its tiny photo — at you hairdresses are similar to not I can. The truth? Wished to look the big photos, yes there to be registered it is necessary — boringly. That kasaemo warm and tender (shchas, I will specify a lexicon: aha — warm and gentle), here it: if you suddenly disappear from my life, it will stop. If you take in head to leave me — I, probably, I will go mad or I will wash down (that same). If you cease to be mine — I will run into deaf melancholy-depression and … More shortly, it is not necessary SO to do — well, my pleasure??? Be in my life! Like me! And I will answer … I after all I am able to like, only to express its (love) is not very dexterous … You excuse me for it, the kid! Whole all and all! I. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 11th, 23-49 (I Conceal!) Yes, with Glucose you have surprised me: did not think, that we from it are similar, and here such fotochka: indeed — I! Thanks! And concerning its age — I said to you, that it last year has ended school! For tender and gentle — separate the hugest mnogopotselujnoe THANKS! Now I will fall asleep, as the baby, with a smile on children's sponges! Well, we are excused at some o'clock?! Good night, sweet! Tomorrow I will call! Ahead a dream — and it ours! I am disconnected! I THINK of you! Smoke. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 12th, 22-26 (Wings!) Greetings, miracle! I all in your SMELL and thoughts on you and on us! The soul soars-flies! A body in general got tired and weightless! Still — such "Kama-sutra" was today! Thanks, liked!!! And how are you doing? The happiest I. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 12th, 23-48 (it is not so good!) Alexey, well where you? We have agreed: under any circumstances — to leave on an Internet-communication at 22-30 or to warn, what we are late?! Well, how so, what for nepunktualnost?! And it any more for the first time! Has not waited! Has gone to sleep. Alina. To my Alina, on May, 12th, 23-57 (I am guilty, but …) Alina, lovely, excuse: after a supper and tea continued all some minutes (as it seemed to me) to look foolish kinoshku on TNT and when on hours has looked — already was 23-50! Never such discomfiture with me happened. But also you, native washing, are not right: so only children and old men early go to bed! I hope, that you have joked also we now we will meet on air. Well it is impossible such perfect evening so is fresh to finish!!! Ours with you today's "Kama-sutra" — a paradise slice in the size at 3 o'clock. And so me today all the day long (excuse!) snoshali: 1) weather, 2) people, 3) circumstances, 4) affairs, 5) animals (red), 6) headaches. As a result I — the squeezed out citrus. I Feel-feel myself a puppy left in the middle of a thunder-storm in an unfamiliar place in landslide loneliness … One hope now — on the KIND, TENDER, LIKING, SENSITIVE girl … Au!!!!! Lyoshka. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 13th, 23-01 (I have come!) "FZ" today was podstavnaja, selling, in general, noodles to spectators on ears were hung also by plugs have not submitted! And how your affairs? As if the century did not hear you, but you in my heart and my head always! However, Lyosha, you today any foggy for me as if at all on my destiny a footpath has laid! You still mine?! Respond, the darling! Blossom for me! Tomorrow has solved at cinema with Lenkoj to descend on any mystical horror film, and then a pizza to devour. I hope, you approve idea — to spend half-day with the girlfriend (with the girlfriend which at me not so it is a lot of!). In the morning to you I will send ardent greetings and in dark blue I will go! And Sunday will be all ours! I wait for it svidanja with otschityvaniem minutes, what a pity, that Sunday not tomorrow! I miss! Alinka. To my Alina, on May, 13th, 23-07 (Three counters) At me, Alina, three counters: 1) I have grandiosely washed off (2,5 hours mutulilsja!); 2) "FZ" it was pleasant to me; 3) D. N netuti houses — walk (that unusually enough). And how at you there affairs? It is glad, what you go at last to cinema (as the film is called — «Smile Mony Lizy»?) moreover with the girlfriend. I will be wound tomorrow on mail, on station, on the market, in shops and there is a probability to face face to face in the street. So it is desirable, that you were with the GIRLFRIEND … Joke! About Sunday itself I dream vzasos. Whole it is hot while in the advance payment — in the MOST OBSCENE places of your divine body! Alex. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 13th, 23-01 (About jealousy) Me disturbs, that absence D. N you disturbs (excuse for a tautology!). Whether jealousy it?! Your kitten. To my Alina, on May, 13th, 23-28 (About trouble) D. N has come. It was not the jealousy, and trouble: if from it of that happens, God forbid, you consider — I will giggle? Unless on "FZ" the history with the offer of a hand and heart in a mode it-lajn was not pleasant to you??? I will wait the answer to this letter and — we will be excused to the day after tomorrow (really) and (see you tomorrow virtually). Gloomy Cat. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 13th, 23-42 (Still voprosiki) 1. About D. N I not meant your trouble, and that to mine (!!!) Lyoshke it is not pleasant, that it to you (perhaps) to spite changes. The proprietor, a pancake, you mine! 2. Wedding on "FZ" — a forgery, podstava, say, grandmas solve all! All is sick naigranno — really you having opened a mouth and with tears on eyes listened-absorbed to this theatrical representation?! 3. Well and the most important thing, has not understood — whether you THINK of me?! Alina. To my Alina, on May, 13th, 23-50 (I Think!.) The main answer — in "theme". Still I will repeat: I THINK, I THINK, I THINK!!! Good. See you tomorrow, my pleasure? I wait still for wishes for the night. Also I THINK, what you will wish me … By the way, today to me a dream dreamt — it would not be pleasant to you, if I tell, so I will not be … (Aha, has hooked???) Do not pout on trifles it it is not solid and does not paint such beauty and the clear head, as you. We wait-with! We. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 14th, 0-21 (Mutually) Spasibochki, the lassie — has noticed, that I pout! And with expressions concerning D. N be cautious — well?! I — the jealous girl suffering by an enormous inferiority complex, enamoured in you completely! Regret me and protect! I too THINK of you, and me disturbs, that before your departure (separation almost in three weeks — I have counted up!) we became more rare to see! Well it is fine — at you business, I understand! And with a dream has hooked, indeed! I too had today a dream which at all is not pleasant to you (aha — 1:1), at a meeting will tell! It will be remarkable, if we suddenly and meet tomorrow! By the way, we will approach to a cinema somewhere by 11-00 (and we meet with Lenkoj at "tank" at 10-30). I miss. I wait. Whole. Good night, zolottse! Your liked. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 15th, 21-15 (See you tomorrow!) Lyosha! HAS become bored! Went to the cinema today (with Lenkoj), then walked from it on Quay. Has come home somewhere at the fifth o'clock. All the day long continuously thought of you! At 22-40 there will be "Eurovision" with ours Savichevoj. Therefore, perhaps, today and it will not be possible to communicate. I suggest to meet tomorrow at 14-00 THERE! Has madly become bored! As though you tomorrow not to eat! See you, native mine! I kiss you! (And the darling tasty Vasju!!!) Yours. To my Alina, on May, 15th, 22-35 (All not so, children!) Have fun. And I will work. See you tomorrow. Alexey Alekseevich. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 15th, 23-11 (Respond!) Lyosha! I can not look any "Eurovision" (especially after your mail), I think of you, I can not concentrate! If you were now nearby would present to me the present paradise! How at you day has passed? Something your letter on mood — not so. Perhaps happens that? You where? I whine from melancholy. Without your embraces I am not warmed (indeed, it is cold)! Has not understood — whether arranges you time and a place of our meeting? Lyosha, yesterday's your letters and today's any not such — dry and impersonal. What is up? Perhaps you me razljublivaesh also wean on the sly? I of it will not go through, hear?! I ask you, like me! Without your love I — empty … Well where you? Yours of the Smoke. To my Alina, on May, 16th, 0-08 (Alas, hren!) Alina, I tutoka! But I look "Eurovision". How I could not look, though was not going to, time you look — I wish to be with you at least IN PARALLEL, if there is no possibility to be consecutive (?!). Alina, lovely, for what is suffered? It I about performance of your (ours) Savichevoj … Such hren! Moreover elbows are soiled, as at the slob … the Painted Negroes are in general from psychiatry area. Fie! The old grumbler. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 16th, 0-22 (You are healthy?) Native my sufferer, it about these Negroes bad also has smeared elbows (and popku too!). Has shown Nothing, indeed, — hren! About us with you something pisnyosh, or you are excited more with the soiled honour of Russia on "Eurovision"?! It is so much questions in an Internet-box has thrown, and any answer? What happens? To communicate you do not want, but why? I to worry the beginnings, and it before a dream is not good! Your Interrogative. To my Alina, on May, 16th, 0-21 (And you where?) Alina, pleasure washing, and at me impression, what is it you start otodvigatsja-be released and find from me pleasures in dialogue with others … Called to you today (you promised only half-day with the girlfriend to spend!), has communicated, probably, with papikom … Allow to quarrel never, never, never … (It — from an old song, but quite lays down on a melody of our romance!) I like you — more than probably! Whole — and mentally, both vospominatelno, and predvkushitelno!!! Time suits me. At once THERE? Alex. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 16th, 0-35 (I yours!) Lovely, solar my little man! I have come, indeed, late — almost in nine, all Quay have travelled all over, in a pizzeria not one hour have stayed (I two bottles of beer have set!) also have seen a class horror film «Van Helsing». I am happy, because you are in my life! And today with Lenkoj I have definitively understood it! And as I can keep away, if near to you — the LIFE, HAPPINESS, LIGHT! I have such miracle — you, you and only you! Tomorrow we will be together, my love! I wait, very much I wait!!! Certainly, at once THERE — has become bored, already a lip I bite! Tell in brief how day at you has passed? Anticipating Alinka. To my Alina, on May, 16th, 0-47 (Has overcome itself and Majl.ru) Alina, has overcome-has recustomized outcoming mail, and like the beginnings a letter box to send. But in general it ceases to like me (such failures earlier with Majl.ru was not) so I after returning from Siberia will make, as well as for a long time was going to, a new box somewhere on a commercial server (com). The most interesting today: 1) has bought the ticket to Ekaterinburg, 2) has sent a parcel with the books to sister to Abakan (for rajbiblioteki) so there is no place to recede already, 3) has looked on TNT a piece of awful transfer «the love Price»: the guy could not be defined in any way with whom it to remain — the wife or the mistress, tried to commit suicide twice, and then took and … has killed the mistress! And so it has turned out, that looked it together with me and D. N — I represent, what thoughts wandered in her head … However, tomorrow — is more detailed. And you to me too will more in detail tell-will tell — where it it is possible to wander till 9 evenings … (As hardly earlier in your mail appeared «Has come home somewhere at the fifth o'clock …») Jealous I. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 16th, 23-20 (As in a fairy tale!) Well once again hi, light of my eyes! Day was perfect (despite a cold THERE and a wind on Quay!). And you were fantastically gentle and tender! You open in me the woman and do not forget about the girl! Thanks you for it! After all both that, and another — I! Like THEM is like me! I embrace you strong-strong and whole it is sweet-is sweet! I already in pizhamke: all full perfect and bright (!!!) memoirs, and also full of HOPES … (What? Those!) as you do not suffice me in warm and soft postelke!!! I think of it each time before escaping in a dream! I fall asleep only with thought on you! I like you! I wait some more vivifying droplets of caress and tenderness! Good night! Come to my dream — we with you T-A-A-A-K-O-E utvorim (even more purely, than today THERE)! I promise! Whole in area pupochka and more low (?!!!). Yours vinogradinka. Lick me! To my Alina, on May, 16th, 23-37 (Ku-ku!) Alinka, my happiness! About today I am silent. A fairy tale! Long thought how to mark in a diary, not to forget, and has written shortly: «the Classic shouted:“ Analginum! ”». In my opinion, has very successfully ciphered all three kinds-ways our today's fantastic ulyotov with the characteristic-definition of everyone — now and in 20 years I will recollect … Whether you have become bored of me HOW I on you??? I admit still: your LAST offer does not go from a head. Perhaps we will meet in half an hour THERE?. (The Joke!) Give we vstretimsja more soon-will incorporate in the general dream! Waiting in night. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 17th, 21-03 (News flower) Evening kind, evening May (lyrics!). Lyosha, we even look back simultaneously, how it was today, when we go everyone to the mink, as if someone operates us (whether from above?). Yes, communication at us with you it is direct any mentally-psychological! We feel each other, and it is the big rarity! Think of me, and I about you — can, then also the life will be adjusted, and problems will be resolved?! Whole small and gentle butonchikami. Your lily of the valley silvery. (Thanks for a wonderful bouquet! A smell in a room the fantastic!) P. S. And it is Ben Affleck: the truth — it is good? To my Alina, on May, 17th, 22-32 (Orgazm!) Alina, last 1,5 hours of the life has spent for an ironing (glazhenie?): it is such drive! Has cut your disk ("Spleen") and under music underneath with such pleasure it was delayed at an ironing table that is literally almost that has tested orgazm (especially that turned out — I after all did not iron years 15). And you, native, than enjoyed chichas? Yours pivoljub and pitstsepoedatel. (Eh, it would be not necessary to me to drink beer!. Well it is fine — with you to me and beer on advantage!) P. S. Ben Affleck is not pleasant to me. Also what you to monsters with gangster physiognomies pulls??? After all there is, for example, Richard Gere, Kianu Rivz, Lyosha Domashnev etc . I send, as have agreed, Nastju Kinsky: it seems to me — quite … Alex. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 17th, 23-25 (it is not necessary!) Your taste to me too not on taste! Excuse, but at Nastasi Kinski the person of the young milkmaid, a breast — Lilliputian and stryomnaja! Affleck — not an ideal, of course, but in him is that line which first of all involves me in the man: it rather courageous and is gentle-romantic simultaneously! You in muzhiks do not understand anything! The main thing — breed that the man was equally strong and weak. Such to women like! That it also has protected, and that it too could protect-regret-caress it! Give we will conclude the pact (what already under the bill — has got off!) — not to send it is more each other the "left" photos, only the. Hockey? I. To my Alina, on May, 17th, 23-42 (And football!) Hockey so hockey! And — football. The main thing — not to quarrel on trifles. Good, tomorrow you will explain-will dot one's "i's" and cross one's "t's" to me, "at" and other vowels. For now — I wish-dream to fail in a dream and to meet there you. Good night? Thanks for a today's promenade with beer and a pizza (I think if I will drink no more bottles of beer — no trouble will not occur: not to become an inveterate drunkard to you alone)!!! Whole in lilies of the valley of lips. The lyosha-poet. To my Alina, on May, 18th, 22-54 It (is sick) Alina, something to me hrenovo. (Blja! Has poured klavu over coffee!!!!) moods are not present. I will lay down. How has understood? Reception. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 18th, 23-06 (Recipes!) It I! I sit at a computer and I think of you! You — my life! Lyosha! I ask you — be not sick and do not worry! You remember as at Dostoevsky — we are unfortunate because we do not know, that are happy (seem, so!). At you ahead a perfect trip, and I will wait for you, as the correct and liking wife waits for the husband (!?). All at us will be remarkable, it is necessary to believe only in itself and not to pay attention to all extraneous rubbish! Listen, can, you have caught a cold? If I was a number — would warm you both morally, and physically, and you necessarily would blossom! But it is too much! As the destiny has not presented to us while JOINT happiness of residing, I do all aforesaid virtually! Well?! Take care and treat, if znobit! Yes, and the most important medicine — think and remember me! I like! Your panacea. (And klava will survive and will excuse you this coffee onanizm!) To my Alina, on May, 18th, 23-10 (Danke shchon!) Thanks, native, for councils and wishes! But in a counterbalance to you I speak: as it is good, that you now are not present nearby! I in such mood-condition am intolerable also to myself is opposite … Though, of course, can be, you and could tame-calm me … But — hardly. I sometimes like to be the rubbishy tyrant in last degree. It is better to leave me one and to allow to fuse … All. Wish me good night. The truth — I will try to be chopped off. Samsebeprotivnyj. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 19th, 22-21 (Emotions!) Lyosha! Emotions gush forth, so excuse, if I will sprinkle-will freshen! You have so enriched, have shined, oskazochil … (and more it is a lot of verbs with a prefix "about"!) my destiny, that without you I do not want (and I can not!) to live!!! Our time parting will prove you it! Do not think, as if I am not glad, that you leave (opposite — very much for you is glad!), the main thing (I ask, I ask!), DO NOT WEAN FROM me, REMEMBER, THINK … And I will live only one thought, that soon meeting — long-awaited, desired, perfect! … We are ANGELA, what to us distances if we have WINGS?! The happy. To my Alina, on May, 19th, 22-39 (Tutoshny still!) Alina, I still tutoshny, chernozyomno-baranovsky! I inform nenovost: has received from D. N under the full program only has given a hint about 65 roubles for phone (a pier, give we will pay on an equal footing) … Eruption of Vesuvius! And I silently have cooked kartoshechki with meat, zababatsal salatik ogurechno-tomato, have opened to bank Riga a sprat (in «the Gold small fish» has bought), yes chajkom with sweets have knocked down … Anything, to live it is possible! Also I do not say, that the today's HOT evening spent with you, beloved washing, heated to me a soul and protected from failure in reciprocal rage. It is glad, that you are glad for me, that I leave … Mda-a-a, did not expect!!! Lyoha Baranovsky. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 19th, 23-01 (Here and there: all the same together!) What means — m-yes, did not expect?! I am glad, that you at me such vumnyj, go to Ekaterinburg on such important symposium, and then home, to sister … I as the native and liking little man, sincerely I rejoice for you am on the one hand. With another, certainly, — this separation heart to me will plough up up and down! But we all the same together, even when and not nearby! I will wait and will begin to cry with happiness! Unless not this miracle?! Alinka. To my Alina, on May, 19th, 23-33 (Question) Alina, lovely, a question on zasypku: you pivka yet did not add? Something strange is in your mails … However, can, to me it only is thought. But what for you again are seriously justified, as if the joke has not understood, what is it, and I have simply forgotten it to note in brackets. Good. Have driven. Whether has started to look furtively my videoarchive? How the Idiot there feels? I wait for answers and greetings. Lyoha Siberian. To mine Lyoshenke, on May, 19th, 23-45 I (Answer) Yes! YES!! Daaaaaaaa!!! Yes — I do not understand your humour! "Idiot" will be absorbed after your departure. Video yet do not manage to be seen furtively — I will be looked-admire too at you already without you. And in mails SOMETHING strange, really, is. I should get used-understand, that you will not be 18 days. I will live this time without your voice, a smile, kisses, embraces and ALL the REST! How? I do not know … Seem, all questions has answered. Alina. P. S. Today, during our last affinity, already losing consciousness in predorgazmichesky an instant, I have begun to cry from thought, what is it Last time BEFORE LONG SEPARATION … And you even have not noticed it! To my Alina, on May, 20th, 19-35 (a horse-radish!) I am late for a train, I dive into the Internet — a mail from you LAST to read and: a horse-radish! Thanks! Dissatisfied I. |
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